The Search Stops..

Growing up I never really had the parenting love MOST kids get. I never had any friend I could call "friend" like someone we grew up with (tend to move alot), shared everything or simply the ONLY person you could turn to when nothing seems right (you know, that feeling when your best friends always there for you?) well I didn't have the previlegde to have or grow up with all that.... SO!
Well ya, I know alot people are like that, lonely and shit (even worst)...so I might as well suck it up, and live right? ya. well..I did...in fact I did for twenty-one YEARS! The only reason I chose act like I havn't, is bcoz I kinda GAVE up! (then why come to blogville? - coz I heard blogville's got alot L.O.V.E)...so I came have the FEEL! you knw, feel among! (already got some in my first comments...thnx u guys *blushing). When someone comes to blogville all s/he gotta do is post, post, post and...POST! it doesn't matter how crazily bazzarly annoyingly funnyingly stupidly intelligently geniusly insanily creative the person is, people would comment, love, care and on top all, take that EXTRA mile for you (a complete stranger!) So, don't get me wrong, am not here for anything more then the sweet warm ture feeling (hope so...) of the love thats been clouding blogville...and I know am just a DROP in the ocean, compared most people and their issues, but doesn't hurt to try does it?? is what I've been searching for... tried ALL my life..and damn it am I TIRED!!